Well...we definitely murdered Pirates... How I wish we only killed it.

Wow.  Pirates was such an epic fail.  I have no idea what to even say.

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That was just so terrible.  I'm completely speechless.

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Lately, I've been thinking a lot about how we always say that Forest Ridge doesn't have the same drama that public schools have, and I've been starting to disagree.

Have you ever noticed that we talk about our problems with each other all the time while over an Instant Messaging system, yet we never actually talk about them face to face, and often pretend that they don't exist at all.

I feel like we're different people online as opposed to off, like we feel safety in the fact that we don't actually have to say things to other people directly.

The next day, we pretend nothing's wrong, and that we're all just as tightly knit as ever...

Our Drama is in the fact that we don't seem comfortable enough with each other to be able to face each other.

Is it just me that is bothered by this?  I think this is something to work on, because this is making me miserable quite frankly, and if this is the level of communication our generation is going to grow up with, then we're going suffer, and that's the reality of it.

So, if you are feeling this and want to talk the "old-fashioned" way, I'm very up to it.  Don't bother commenting, ill guess ill just find out the response to this tomorrow...?
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I know I don't treat you like i should, and I'm sorry for that.  Sometimes i convince myself that that's the nature of our relationship, but now I'm beginning to wonder.
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I wonder sometimes if you take me for granted...if I were to leave would you notice that i was gone?  For reasons other than the fact that I'm not doing anything for you anymore?
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Are you trying to pull away from me?  Is it on purpose? Sometimes I can't really tell
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I feel like we're growing apart, and we need to fix it.  The problem is, I can't tell if we're too far gone to be able to return to where it was.
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It's not your fault, but sometimes i can't help but blame you for what's going on.  If I take it out on you, I'm sorry and I really hope you forgive me
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I wish I knew who you were, not your facade, or how you want to come off, but you.  Sometimes you change so fast that I have a had time keeping up, and I never know what to think.
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I wish we hadn't grown apart, but I don't think there's any going back...
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I wish I had noticed what was happening between us a lot sooner.  Maybe it wouldn't be hurting me now.
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I don't understand what it is about you that makes me uneasy around you, maybe it's the fact that you seem to have it so well, and you seem to know how your life is planned out...and I have no clue.
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Sometimes I feel like you're the epitome of what i could have been...had i tried harder at everything i do.  You don't seem to have to worry much at all, because you can handle it.  I feel like i'm going to unravel every second of every day.
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I miss you...and sometimes I think it's a lot more than you miss me, if you do at all.
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I used to wonder if you could tell there was anything wrong with us.  I wish i could tell you about it, but I fear by waiting this long to bring it up, it'll just make things worse.
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I wish I could like you, because i know you're probably having problems too, but since I can't I have no idea how to navigate around you.
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Raise your hand if you think I'm in a depressing mood.... * raises both hands *

well, that was interesting. It's my remake of when i tried to to the whole TWIMC deal...I blame the first part of the post as to why i can't say any of this to your faces.  Some of you have more than one, and I might not have mentioned you at all.

If you read something that you relate to/might be about you/worried you, come talk to me.  I didn't mean for this to be ominous, but more as a therapeutic release...i also didn't want to mention any names or go to deep into anything, so sorry if this makes you worried or somethin... :-/

well..that was a long post

--Muchas Smoochas.